Music Discovery: Sucre

I just discovered this awesome band via A Beautiful Mess which is one of my FAVORITE blogs. Elsie Larson is one of my many muses and a bit of an inspiration for me.

I AM TOTALLY NOT JEALOUS, TOTALLY NOT.

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Ok, I am. But how can you not be?

Self Discipline HAR HAR HAR

Yeah. Self discipline. Clearly I am an avid follower.

2011 took over my life in a real messed up way and the end of it kinda hit me like a rabid kid beating on a pinata. Very few people I know had a good 2011. My good friend had her house burn down, and the bar she worked at closed down. I had my purse stolen which wouldn't really be a big deal except all of the material I was collecting for stand up was in a notebook, IN the purse. Then I had a cancer scare (NO BIG DEAL HAR HAR HAR) and then broke my foot and pretty much missed all the holidays. I also was warned that it was highly likely that I was going to get fired. This sent me into panic mode and had me planning to move back to WI then possible to Vancouver. Then 2012 rolled around and (crosses fingers and prays to whatever there is that I'm not jinxing it) so far… really good. Met a dude that still wanted to hang out with me even though new year's included a wonderful array of stomach splattering pyrotechnics from yours truly.

Goooooood times.

I'm back at work and while I know I'm on thin ice, so far so good. Unfortunately my possible kick to the ass was more so the fault of a developer I'm working with, it was still my responsibility to manage the project and I should have recognized that it was somewhat tanking.

Also in 2011, I pretty much lost passion for any creative endeavor, as proof with my keeping up with this blog. However, I did take an improv class and did a performance which was AWESOMESAUCE but then I started working 50 to 60 hours a week and my brain gave me the finger and was all "You think I have energy to be funny? How's this for funny, cunt?" So I just kinda shut down. I also haven't written a short story in a year which for me is real bad. Writing is pretty much the only passion that ever stuck with me and the fact I haven't actively pursued it makes me feel like I cut off a limb. I still am taking photos but due to my lack of energy and self discipline, that has waned as well.

Sooooo now that my oh-so-horrible problems are out and about, time to stop being a whiny bitch and do something about it, yeah?

I'm Back Bitches

After a very long absence I shall be returning to the world of blogging. My life kinda imploded with work and a fuck ton of weird happenings. I haven't really written anything in a year and I need to kick my own ass to start again.

SO, if anyone actually still reads this.... hello again! lol

I WILL be updating at least once a week cause I plan to start making A LOT of ch-ch-changes in my life. Mainly enforcing that whole self discipline thing that I am OHHH so good at.

So WOOTZLE!!

Now for some Max Normal TV




Herrrrreeee we go!!

2011 = Change

I’ve been super absent from my blog lately due to some momentous changes in my life. It’s a bit hard to write this because I had so many other ideas for entries but I’d like to put what I feel in writing as it makes it a bit more real. So, a recap:

• In December I moved out of the apartment I lived in with my boyfriend for over a year. I moved into a studio in the Mission district of San Francisco which is where I have wanted to live for a very long time. I love my studio and it has become my home, my haven. I must admit it’s awesome to have complete decorating control. I’ve already reached the point of making it my own so that when people walk in they know it’s my place as it is so very Heather lol. Pictures will be posted as my sister has threatened me with bodily harm if I don’t. Plus I’m actually quite proud of it. My boyfriend moved in with his grandma in Alameda to save some money and we finished completely moving out of our apartment last week. Our walk through was on the 31st so we truly started the new year fresh.

• Earlier this week my boss let me know that was resigning. This is substantial in that he has become like a second dad to me. He was there for me when very few people were and quite honestly there were times where I really should have been terminated but he believed in me enough to ride out the rough times. This also means the dynamic of my workplace will change significantly. I am going to have to step up my game as I know I do quite a lot but I know I can do more and do better.

• Last night my boyfriend of almost 2 years I broke up. It was completely mutual and no hearts were broken. But it’s still hard in the sense that for awhile I truly thought that this was it. This was the last person I’d date. Perhaps everyone feels that in a relationship at one time or another. He’s going to be moving to Portland later this year so our relationship was going to end at one point or another. We also had been growing apart for quite awhile. But I regret nothing and would take nothing back. I have learned so much from him and this relationship. I learned that I could be loved and I deserved it. I learned what I would accept and when it was too much. We will continue to be friends and for that I am grateful because I still love him albeit in a different way then when we started. I know that he has learned a lot as well and that makes me incredibly happy. That’s what a close of a relationship should be. Don’t focus on the end; focus on the journey that got you there. The good, the bad, it was all worth it. This song pretty much incorporates everything I feel in a beautiful way, except for the broken heart part, obviously lol. However, this relationship has made my heart much, much stronger.

I will be posting a lot more due to the fact that I will FINALLY be getting the interweb in my new place tomorrow. It’s also part of my new year’s resolution as I have been inspired by all the amazing blogs I follow. I’m not even sure if anyone reads this anymore but I plan to add a lot more stuff and things.

So yeah, 2011 has started off with a hell of a bang. I am a little apprehensive to see where this year will take me but I have a feeling that it will be full of changes for the better. Mostly in myself. Woot!

I'M ALIVE!

Yeah… so, been awhile. Life kinda took over and I kinda lost the motivation to post. I’ll probably be updating my other blog in a day or two to go over the details. Bad things happen to me in 3’s. I also have the birthday week curse. Everything awful will happen during this week. Lets recap. My birthday was June 19 and the series of unfortunate events began with:

1. My Grandmother’s funeral was ON my birthday so I got some lovely calls. “She looks so beautiful, we wish you were here. Happy Birthday. Wonderful. We weren’t that close so while I mourned, it wasn’t really a tragedy due to the fact that she hadn’t been doing the best for awhile.
2. The morning after my birthday party, our neighbor was found dead in his bed, in his apartment. This means that he died less than 4 feet from where I sleep. And my boyfriend and I believe that he died on Thursday because we heard some really intense snoring (realllllly thin walls) then suddenly it stopped. He usually calls his friends EVERY morning at 9am and we hadn’t heard him since then. So yeah, I heard the death rattle. Ah ha.
3. I got the WORST sunburn I have EVER had. We’re talking blisters, intense pain and a Dr trip that involved Vicodin.
4. This last weekend someone got a hold of my credit card number and stole $975. That was my rent money. Good times.
5. My dad has to have intense surgery July 15 and I am terrified for him.
   

So yeah. Being 27 has not been pleasant. I can really no longer say “It could be worse” because every time I do, something fucked up happens. I apologize for the unpleasant tone of this post BUT I did get a SLR camera and have been taking pics left and right so I will be posting them soon! So I guess this is just an update so everyone knows I’m a live. Lol. That is if anyone still reads this blog lol.