Slacker Envy

I’ve always been envious of those that discover their passion at a young age. It gives them decades to refine their talents and when I discover their work I kinda get the “What’s the point?” attitude because they’re far more advanced and I feel as thought I’d never catch up. Methinks a majority of it depends on if they were encouraged to create. I could never focus on just one thing so my parents didn’t really support my talents because they figured I’d quit after I got bored. Unfortunately they were correct many a time. I get bored so very quickly (hrmmm could it be because I have ADHD? lol) and my lack of self discipline doesn’t help. My fiddle has been practically SCREAMING at me to pick it up and play. I never feel that I have enough time anymore.

Yes, I know, I know. I need to MAKE time. Hmph. Baby steps… baby steps.

Anyway, the catalyst for my self admonition:


I’ve know about this artist for awhile and I want to share her work because it is absolutely amazing. I have never been in to porcelain dolls. I never saw the point of owning something you couldn’t touch. After discovering this woman’s website I finally understand. To buy one of her dolls is to own a piece of beauty. Her name is Marina Bychkova. She was born in South-West Siberia and migrated to Canada when she was 14. This girl started making dolls at the age of 11 (paper and fabric) and was selling them to her classmates when she was 12.

Yeah. Who feels like a slacker?

Her website is: The Enchanted Doll. She focuses on the seedy underbellies of fairytales. Example-She has a doll whose name is Necrophilia. Guess which fairytale character she represents? Snow White. For some weird reason it never really registered that when the Prince kissed Snow White SHE WAS DEAD.

A collective "ewwwwwwww" please?

Here are some of my favorites:









You NEED to visit her website and check out her other dolls. Another amazing thing is SHE photographs them. Hopefully I won’t get in trouble for having some of these photos up as I DO NOT OWN THEM. I only want to show how beautiful her creations are.

She hand paints them, moulds them, designs and makes the clothing/ jewelry that they wear, and pretty much has dedicated her LIFE to doing this. I need to discover/refine a talent. I’ve got to have at least one… right?? I wish I could just concentrate on one passion…. le meh.

Yeah yeah, I know I KNOW. Baby steps.

hmph

Fuck Fuzio

I have discovered that Fuzio is place I shall never return to as my stomach wants to punch the face of whoever was in charge of cooking my meal. J, B, S and I went there for dinner last night and when I returned home I was reintroduced to the fetal position and popped tums like they were M&M’s.

Sad

Panda

Because of my indigestion/food poisoning/angry elves kicking the shit out of my stomach, I missed a goodbye party for two English ladies I had become acquainted with who are returning to London.

Sad

Panda

Also, apparently I was too eager in nourishing myself today with deciding to eat a pickle. This must have cause a riot with the elves because my stomach proceeded to yell at me and is now sending threats of re-familiarizing me with my partially digested lunch.

Not fun.

So, the discovery of the day is: Fuck Fuzio. And to them I say:

But all is not lost for my Fourth was spent watching the finest of SF's amateur fireworks from a beautiful rooftop view. Though for a bit M, S and I were convinced the world was ending due to the amount of screaming and sirens that surrounded us.

Good times, good times.

A Taste… er View of the Future!

Absent from my own blog again? Pffffffffffffft, nevvvvvvvver. *loosens collar nervously*

Anyway! Onword ho to new stuff and new things. Ze format of zis blog vill be changing a bit. I will try my damnedest to actually keep it updated at least 3 times a week (my new laptop will aide in this endeavor) and it shall actually be about stuff and things that I discover.

*GASP*

I know, how very surprising. So, here is the first taste of it. Oh, and sidenote. I do hope I do not get sued as I will be putting stuff from other sites on here… BUT THEY WILL GET CREDIT! Also, for future reference, I am a broke ass ho. Glad we cleared that up.

Ok, ze new discovery! Well… I kinda discovered this like 2 months ago but I’m trying to make up for lost time.

(212): i want you now
(916): you need to stop dating girls with the same name as your mother...or stop drinking so much...I don't want to see this

(404): Can I crash on your couch? I just came home to find my wife giving two guys blowjobs.
(1-404): Two?
(404): Two.

(818): I'm upset that MJ died and all but waking up to his face on my HDTV in the middle of the night while half-asleep is pretty much the scariest fucking thing ever.

(402): I was high as a kite when I got pulled over by a cop and he asked me for my ID and if I had been smoking weed, I said no and gave him my debit card.

(715): Apparently at one point I was wearing my sweatshirt backwards like it was normal and then I threw up into the hood. Never drinking again.

(310): hey what are you doing
(310): hooking up with some marlborough girl. shes gorgeous!
(310): i texted you because i like you, and i told my freinds you were my fiance. but sine we're not dating you're not cheating and i'm pathetic

(540): Note to self. Never fart in a tanning bed

This wonderful little gems are from a fantastic site called www.textsfromlastnight.com If you’re bored or feeling bad about your life, just go the site, read, and you shall discover that your life isn’t nearly as bad as you think. Or at least they will make you giggle. It’s kinda like the drunk version of www.bash.org which is another radtastic site that you should check out. Here are some quotes from IRC (if that doesn’t prove my geekness I don’t know what does…) Samples:

Donut[AFK]> HEY EURAKARTE
Donut[AFK]> INSULT
Eurakarte> RETORT
Donut[AFK]> COUNTER-RETORT
Eurakarte> QUESTIONING OF SEXUAL PREFERENCE
Donut[AFK]> SUGGESTION TO SHUT THE FUCK UP
Eurakarte> NOTATION THAT YOU CREATE A VACUUM
Donut[AFK]> RIPOSTE
Donut[AFK]> ADDON RIPOSTE
Eurakarte> COUNTER-RIPOSTE
Donut[AFK]> COUNTER-COUNTER RIPOSTE
Eurakarte> NONSENSICAL STATEMENT INVOLVING PLANKTON
Miles_Prower> RESPONSE TO RANDOM STATEMENT AND THREAT TO BAN OPPOSING SIDES
Eurakarte> WORDS OF PRAISE FOR FISHFOOD
Miles_Prower> ACKNOWLEDGEMENT AND ACCEPTENCE OF TERMS

Zybl0re> get up
Zybl0re> get on up
Zybl0re> get up
Zybl0re> get on up
phxl|paper> and DANCE
* nmp3bot dances :D-<
* nmp3bot dances :D|-<
* nmp3bot dances :D/-<
[SA]HatfulOfHollow> i'm going to become rich and famous after i invent a device that allows you to stab people in the face over the internet

t0rbad> so there i was in this hallway right
BlackAdder> i believe i speak for all of us when i say...
BlackAdder> WRONG BTICH
BlackAdder> IM SICK OF YOU
BlackAdder> AND YOUR LAME STORIES
BlackAdder> NOBODY HERE THINKS YOURE FUNNY
BlackAdder> NOBODY HERE WANTS TO HEAR YOUR STORIES
BlackAdder> IN FACT
BlackAdder> IF YOU DIED RIGHT NOW
BlackAdder> I DON"T THINK NOBODY WOULD CARE
BlackAdder> SO WHAT DO YOU SAY TO THAT FAG
*** t0rbad sets mode: +b BlackAdder*!*@*.*
*** BlackAdder has been kicked my t0rbad ( )
t0rbad> so there i was in this hallway right
CRCError> right
heartless> Right.
r3v> right


lol. Hopefully this provided a discovery of new entertainment and lead to a gaggle of giggles.

WOOT!

Long Ago

I wrote this stuff a long time ago but never showed anyone because they were so personal. But while in MN a lot of synapses a fired at once and now...

Fuck it. It's how I feel/felt. Time to express it.

Some of these are/were songs so they can be a bit rhymey but who cares.

Feedback would be kewl.

Where did you come from?
And just when I was ready
Where did you go?

The tree beside you was dipping
Trying to take your soul
I fell deep in to this story
Of a land from long ago

Oh
Where did you come from
and just when I was ready
Where did you go?



In my scared silence I'll sing to you with hollow bones
My heart has naught to offer 'cept a reflection of thine own
I wander aimlessly down this path of false hope
With a marred smile twisted on my lips
My face now only knows one expression
For the rest are too vulnerable to bare
It's hard to cry when a salt has dammed the ducts
The disdain in your eyes has made this clear
I am nothing to you, and never was.



Dark shades of blue
remind me that I am nothing, nothing to you
tears fill my brim
they cry, you are nothing, nothing to him
So I long for the black
For it sings, you're not, you're not coming back
Because when a heart shatters, only time can heal
But when the spirit goes there's not time to spare



Hollow boy, where did you get those eyes?
I must admit, it took me by surprise
that you remembered, you remembered my name
I thought, well I believed
that I was just another broken doll for you to leave
See I thought, no I believed
that i could fill you, I could fill you with my love
silly me, silly me to think that was enough
But now you're back, you're back to take some more
well I'm sorry to disappoint, and I'm sorry to bore
But there is nothing, nothing for you to take anymore
See now I'm hollow, I'm hollow with only songs
to remind me, to remind me of what is gone.



Hello, ball and chain.
Good to know your back again
thanks for the memory
of a sad and weaker shade of me
It comforts me still
to know that I made my own living hell
Cause when you were in charge
of something that heavy
i realized that salvation was in me
Goodbye ball and chain
I'll wear your scars with pride
to show the world I didn't hide



Trapped in my own skin
entangled again
I don't know where to begin
to unweave the web I’m in



tick tock things and silken strings tie me to you, release my lever while I untie my tether and separate we shall go.

So yeah. From long ago but some what applies to now. *shuffles nervously* holy vulnerable I feel. lol

We're All In This Together

Below is the language from a card that my friend Emily gave me for my birthday. She said it reminded her of something I’d write. I wholeheartedly agree and am pissed for not doing it first. Le sigh

According to Einstein, all things living and non-living are made of a mass, which we call matter, and the mass of a physical object and the energy it contains are, in fact, interchangeable along the formula E=MC². Which essentially concludes that matter is nothing more than a form of light, and that humans are, essentially the same thing as eels, rats, bears, chairs, dung or sashimi. On that note, it could be said that eels, rats, bears, chairs, dung, and sashimi should all have birthdays too.

Hey, we’re all in this together.

Le true, no? Now lets all hold hands and sing It's a Small World After All.

Just cause.